The Past, the present, and the future

Changing you eating habits and lifestyle also causes a shift in emotions. Why did I let myself get so out of control How did this addiction to fast food and foods that were hurting me get started? Why does unhealthy food make me feel temporarily complete?

I will say that the hardest part about eating raw is going through all the past emotions and figuring out how they effect me now. Fatty foods and foods that are horrible for me (sugar, bread, wheat, dairy) and make me feel physically horrible have this power to fill a hole that I feel in my chest. I realize that there is something missing, something that I am filling that should go there instead. There was a time in my life when food became the filler for that hole. Many times I have tried to "break up" with junk food and have been successful for a few weeks, just to find myself back together with it.

A big insight into my emotions and feelings has been "Conscious Loving". I notice that I have been much more open to my emotions and about my emotions. I talk more freely with people about how I feel, even when it's uncomfortable to do so. My dreams have also taken an interesting turn lately. In my dreams I am put in situations that are highly charged with emotions. By the end of the dream I have performed one or more exercises to emotional healing and wake up with a new sense of hope and happiness that are, quite honestly, very foreign to me.

Opening up to emotions of the past is allowing me to see how my preset is being run. I am letting the past run my present. This past week has been amazingly productive at work and at home. I feel a new sense of energy with my choices and also am not afraid to make mistakes. The toughest part about opening up to emotions is learning to love the negative along with the positive.

We are constantly growing. We continue to learn and live in new ways. I am on a track to self love and continual positive energy. Learning to love yourself completely and to embrace what happens around and to you is a task I know I will never complete, but with each moment that passes becomes easier to do.

My past has provided me with important life lessons.

My present is learning to live life in the most positive energy I can.

My future is bright and beautiful.