Day 2: Diabetes is not my curse, but it is my cure.

I realized on the way home that I have gone through an array of emotions today about the feast. I can honestly say that the entire time I have been happy about it. My energy levels have sky rocketed, overall I am in a happier mood (which I realize is because I want to be), and I am prepared to follow this thing through for the whole 30 days... well 23 feasting and then a week to get off the juice feast, but staying raw. I would probably stick with it longer if I could do juice feasting on my vacation, but even that is a bit extreme.

Anyway, I did realize that I have been in a long term relationship with food. This relationship started in High School and has been a battle ever since. Some of my coworkers were talking about ordering food. They were talking about pizza, and buffalo wings, and jalapeno poppers... and suddenly, although I had gone all day without a single craving, all the cravings I have ever had for food came rushing back.

I did not give into my cravings. No, I took a step back and realized that unhealthy food had been feeling a void of emotions I have made in my life. Junk food was what made me feel full, in a way that healthy food never could. Junk food, warm food, meat, cheese, CHOCOLATE!!! All of these have been helping fuel my anger at being Diabetic (and other things) that they are in turn also killing me.

When I got Diabetes I was told that I could die. Over and over in my life doctors have told me this. It was a statement meant to scare me into being the perfect Diabetic... Well I am not Diabetic, I am a woman who happens to have Type 1 Diabetes. They were trying to make me be something I was not. Diabetes is not my priority in life and it never should be. Diabetes should be something to remind me every day that the world has given me all the resources I need to survive. It is the reminder that we are what we eat, that raw food and a healthy, balanced lifestyle is the way to a long and happy life.

Diabetes is not my curse, but it is my cure. I do not need to "cure" my Diabetes for I was given it to cure myself. It has been the biggest burden on my life thinking that I needed to find a way to hide or get rid of this "thing that happened to me when I was 8". If I were not Diabetic would I even know remotely as much about my body or about health as I do? Would I be on this raw food juice feasting journey which is already opening my eyes to so much (and I only just finished day 2)?

Diabetes is not my curse, but it is my cure.