My Jeep and I are so similar

So I was driving home from the gym tonight when I get pulled over because one of the headlights on my car is out. I noticed this a few days ago and have, of course, been procrastinating getting it fixed. Quickly I got my license, insurance (thank you Mom and Dad for pestering me about keeping it in my car), and registration ready for the police officer. She was very nice and just concerned for my safety driving this late at night with said headlight issue.

While I was sitting patiently in my car waiting for her to write my warning I got to thinking. My car is not in perfect condition. It is in a state that could become a serious safety issue. Someone could mistake it for a motorcycle and hit the car or perhaps something on the road would not be seen due to lack of light. BUT nothing has happened yet. This is a warning. Just like me.

My warning came in the for of protein in my urine and pain in my body, especially my feet. If I don't start eating right and exercising then I will get worse and eventually become unrepairable. My body is giving off these signals for my safety, not because it hates me or wants me to die, just like that officer didn't pull me over because she was trying to ruin my life, but simply because of my safety.

I am going to continue on my path of healing naturally as well as get that headlight fixed tomorrow. I am reading up on circulation right now and really getting my life together. I've also started sorting out the things I own and finding new homes for them.

Additional to my jeep=me experience, the move into Logan's old room has started. It's cooler in his room, since it's on the bottom level, and that helps me sleep and think. It is also forcing me to really go through ALL my stuff and getting rid of things. There is also the whole thing about Kiwi returning to the states in just a few short days. We will want to hang out as much as possible and with my work schedule I see a lot of that happening at night, so being on the bottom floor allows for us to be a bit more noisy without worry of waking Ryan or Michael.

I am really quite excited about life and my "plans" right now. Despite things still being quite painful and strange in my life, I find it easier to get to the positives in life. It feels great!